Friday, June 05, 2009 @ 6/05/2009 07:11:00 PM
Life sucks.
Just sucks hard.
And a lot.
My body understands my heart better than myself.
If I'm nervous, sweat would run down my palm.
At any time, I wonder, in the tears that want me to stop grinding my teeth.
I've been taught the meaning of regretting the sadness.
I've packed many hopeful words in the bag while starting a new journey.
At the times when I want to turn back, you are the one who stopped me.
Some days, when I couldn't choose the right words.
You who holds someone close without saying anything.
Will realize that your way is really lonely.
Patting my back when I squat down.
That little palm always beside me.
More than any beautifully decorated words.
I was saved by that warmth.
There're moments when everything never goes well.
Surely at times when everything goes wrong.
I guess we'll realize the importance of a person's existence.
Thank you for caring for me no matter what kind of a person I am,
and for always being beside me.
Lying down on the grass,
and gazing at the flowing clouds.
I was able to get back my peaceful heart, though just a little.
In that place, it feels more gentle than yesterday's.
I realized how people couldn't live well only by him or herself.
From afar, I'm enchanted by the swaying flower of miracle.
My regular days that I've strongly protected now have dried up,
on far older days.
I haven't known the adolescence, since I ran through it and realized that,
I've missed the importance of an important person.
We couldn't live with just beautiful hopes.
The promised blue sky would get contaminated.
In the space under the passing beautiful blue sky,
I swore the words, "I'd protect you" into that blueness.
Day after day, without fulfilling my broken dreams.
I think back over the days I've lived, however.
Merely for the reason of looking back and mourning for tomorrow.
People have no choice but to progress forward.
For the sake of the beloved person in front of their eyes.
Touching my invisible scar lightly,
was your little gentle palm.
Way better than the applause from the whole world.
Because the most important thing I hold dear was beside me.
I've lost my way in living these busy days.
Even sympathy have also seemed meaningless.
Since I'll never again lose someone without realizing it.
For you who cared for a person such as I.
I made this long, long passage.
Words are certainly not enough.
I won't be able to catch up.
Words are not enough.
But.
But.
Thank you.