I'm so very tired.

I'm a god damn human.

I'm not an android.

I'm not a robot.

Nor am I a cyborg.

I have my limits.

Even if I have never reached my limit before.

I still have them.

Don't really try pushing me there.

I'm really tired.

I want to just let go.

I want to just forget about everything.

Forgetting everything is the best course of action.

I'll have no regrets.

I'll have no memories.

I'll have no feelings.

I'll have no emotions.

I'll have.. Happiness.

I'd be cleanse of all the bullshit from this world.

Why'd this world have to exist anyway?

I asked myself this question for many years.

I questioned the existence of humans at the age of 4.

And until now, I have never found the answer.

Perhaps because, in the first place.

There was never a reason for existence.

Humans existed to corrupt the world.

Corrupt one another.

Corrupt themselves.

And then leave their pile of crap for others to clean up.

The best way to clear this world of troubles is for the human race to die off.

Die off, and nothing will leech the life of Mother Earth.

Just die off, and you'll have no regrets.

I've seen many give up.

I thought to myself I would never give up.

I persisted through every single shit I went through.

Sure, there are people who are worse off then me.

But the situation of "worse off" depends.

A positive mindset is not always good.

A negative mindset is not always bad.

I really want to give up.

Let go.

Escape.

And be free.

Forget about troubles and crap.

Living is just pure torture.

I don't believe in god.

Because, if god gives us trials and tribulations that we can't overcome.

That beats the purpose.

Even if the purpose is to make us stronger.

There is no point if we crumble under it.

Then, you say. "It's your fault you can't overcome it.".

Screw off. No one really has the power to overcome it.

To be honest, I don't really care if I get bad Karma for this.

Or I will suffer retribution.

I really don't care.

I'd be glad if I leave this world.

Though my only regret is that I'll never be able to pay back my debt.

To my parents.

To my brother.

"In a thousand years, everything about me will be forgotten."