Dear sweetheart, I hope you’ll reading this particular post.
I know that things have been really bad for us, and we’re currently stuck in a bad situation.
I wish you’d talk to me about the problems you’re facing.
I want you to know how much I care for you.
No matter how you try to push me away, I’ll still be here for you always.
I have been wondering what has happened to us, and it really breaks my heart.
A relationship coming close to 3 years, yet it seems to disappear without leaving a trace.
What I really hope, is that you’d stay by me no matter how hard it may be.
Look at it, we have gone through so many ups and downs.
Isn’t this just another obstacle we’re going to face together?
I wish I don’t have to face it alone.
All I ever wanted is the both of us to be happy together.
Baby, I have accepted every part of you, including your flaws.
Why won’t you?
Don’t this relationship mean anything to you anymore?
Don’t I matter to you anymore?
I just hope you will come back to me, because you’re so important.
Please do know that I love you, always.
Even if you don’t believe in ‘forever’, but what I know, you’re the girl I want to be with, the girl I’m willing to love for the rest of my life.
Is it the same for you, baby? I really hope so.

Words are all useless when it comes to convincing you.
I don't even know how I really feel now.
I hope that you still care for me, and I want to know if you really do.
Then at the same time, I don't want to find out if you really do, because it really crushes my hopes if your answer is a no.
I hope that you still remember me, and all our memories, and I want to know.
But again, I'm scared of the answer.

People keep saying even if I get back with you, it won't be the same.
Of course it won't be the same, it'll be even better.
I think about you everyday, every second, every minute and every hour.
"I'm okay", isn't that what I'm supposed to say?
But it's okay, I'll just hide my pain behind my smile.
Just like I always had.

I'm afraid.
I'm afraid that I might never talk to you again and I won't feel the same about anyone the way I feel when I'm with you.
I'm afraid that you'll find someone else and feel different for some other girl, and I'll just be an old school memory.

Do you know what I mean when I say that sometimes I don't have any feelings or emotions?
I'm not in a good mood, or a bad mood.
I just sit there, by myself and think.
I overthink sometimes.
I think about what has happened, what will happen, and what could have happened.
I think about you, I think about what's wrong in my life, I think about how I can get myself out of this stage, I think about why I got here in the first place. I think about everything, and anything.

Silence is a girl's loudest cry.
When she starts ignoring you, it's when she really is hurting.